Today I put $20 worth of gas in my truck. Im going

to drive half the speed and accelerate half the speed as normal

let's see how many miles I can pull out of her.

Starting at 185,478 miles.

Falling In Love 5:57 PM

FALLING IN LOVE

THE HEART PACES, THE PULSE POUNDS, THE CHEEKS FLUSH, THE APPETTITE WANES, THE NIGHTS ARE RESTLESS AND FULL OF DREAMS
THE SYMPTOMS OF FALLING IN LOVE; FALLING IN LOVE EXCITES THE MIND, AND THAT CAUSES PHYSICAL REACTION. SEEING THE BELOVED ONE OR
JUST THINKING ABOUT THEM INCREASES THE FLOW OF ADRENALINE. THEN THERES A REACTION OF THE ENTIRE SYMPATHIC NERVOUS
SYSTEM CAUSING ALL THAT FALLING IN LOVE MAKES.

THE HEART POUNDS, THE NEXT STAGE, JUST LOVING RETURNS IT TO NORMAL

She's the Devils Muse 5:30 PM

"She's clearly damaged goods,

but she's so gorgeously goofy,

so adorably in the moment,

that she's irresistible.

She’s dangerous delicious while pressing a knife to your throat

to make sure you remember your place.

Who wouldn't love a girl that introduces

herself by making you hug her

so you can see she smells so good

you'll want to eat her alive?

or at least lick her a bit?

She’s a bonafide radioactive redheaded rarity,

but you better not piss her off

she'll cut you faster than you can blink.

She'll fucking steal your heart before you realize

she is indeed

THE DEVIL'S MUSE

and she'll use and use

and lick the blood from her fingers

as she tears you to pieces"

I know it sounds crazy. it is crazy. we are both crazy. about everything. that' is what makes us so special. but just think about it. just for .46 seconds. absurd as it sounds as backwards as it seems. plz.

it's there. we both know it.. it's never going anywhere unless we give an honest 100% shot in which we've never been ever really able to do.

you do learn stuff in two years.. even when the bridge breaks. even when all hope is lost.

does the one thing you truly want in life really find it's way back.

you are my June Carter. i will always be chasing ur heart I will always wait for that day you say Yes.

34.

Well I'm scared of ever wanting anything, to know to be self-sufficient, but not self-interested, recoil from that which only tears down your inner leanings and wanderings, rather find what is rightly sincere and full of good amongst yourself and others, no matter the weight or cost of such human envies and resolute sacrifices therein. all for one, and one for all...our civil liberties are not free; from the government, ourselves, family/friends, and certainly not from those who wish to destroy our seeking of social happiness. I am free because you are free. and it is in that thought I first learn to truly love indeed.

Just got to say 10:33 PM

Today was an ok day, woke up super early, went to work and sat and studied ekg rhythms and blah blah blah. Here is a picture of what it looks like to be uber bored.

i found myself in a starbucks once the rain started. i was being laughed by my friend for dashing chocolate powder into my tall drip. as we sat, drank our coffees, and stared out into the dreary looking world outside, i wondered nothing. for once, my mind was just a wave of nothingness, a soft beautiful sound was the only thing i could hear. i was pretty damn happy. sitting there i found myself just holding my coffee and not sipping. a major problem with me when im cold, sometimes i shake so much i cant get the coffee cup up to my lips. lol

after a lil bit at starbucks, i went to one of my favorite parks in jacksonville. its quiet, hidden, and beautiful. with a river view, a swooping tree branch, and little steps for a canoe. i spent a majority of the evening in this park. OHH!! i got to see some new BEAUTIFUL!!!! shiny things. and now i cant get them out of my head :):) I want more pretty please

i sit here now, and stare outside,. the cold rain still drizzles and the wind feels like the cold slow breath of death that silently but violently creeps up on you.

alcohol slowly invades my system tonight, well. ,"as we speak". and my night will begin. with the biggest smile ive had in a little while.. this is going to be a dangerous night for me. hehe


ps...

i wanna see again PLEASE!!!! ;)