Just got to say 10:33 PM

Today was an ok day, woke up super early, went to work and sat and studied ekg rhythms and blah blah blah. Here is a picture of what it looks like to be uber bored.

i found myself in a starbucks once the rain started. i was being laughed by my friend for dashing chocolate powder into my tall drip. as we sat, drank our coffees, and stared out into the dreary looking world outside, i wondered nothing. for once, my mind was just a wave of nothingness, a soft beautiful sound was the only thing i could hear. i was pretty damn happy. sitting there i found myself just holding my coffee and not sipping. a major problem with me when im cold, sometimes i shake so much i cant get the coffee cup up to my lips. lol

after a lil bit at starbucks, i went to one of my favorite parks in jacksonville. its quiet, hidden, and beautiful. with a river view, a swooping tree branch, and little steps for a canoe. i spent a majority of the evening in this park. OHH!! i got to see some new BEAUTIFUL!!!! shiny things. and now i cant get them out of my head :):) I want more pretty please

i sit here now, and stare outside,. the cold rain still drizzles and the wind feels like the cold slow breath of death that silently but violently creeps up on you.

alcohol slowly invades my system tonight, well. ,"as we speak". and my night will begin. with the biggest smile ive had in a little while.. this is going to be a dangerous night for me. hehe


ps...

i wanna see again PLEASE!!!! ;)

Snake Swallows a Hippo 5:12 PM

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do you ever 2:02 AM

do you ever feel a time where you just cant close your eyes.

the feelings lay deep inside and you just cant understand why the thoughts or images burn into your eyes or soul.

lay before you the terms of your life, let them show the path you must follow, and may you undertake the goals that the adventures bring. they will not lead you to misfortune.

great adventures lay before me, i just dont know what i can do at the moment to undertake the events.

fortunes lay past, and right now the future doesnt look to great. hearts have broken, people have been lost or hurt, thing have changed. life just isnt the same.

but all you can do is just hope for the best and pray that your friends are around to just be there to help you out.

but, are they.... or can they be really.. or do they just choose to know your problems and just ignore them ..

how many times do you push the reject button on your cell phone?

ive always found myself to keep it in hand, never reject a friend., or someone you truly care about.

how can you sit and stare at the same stars and not think, what are you doing?? how do you feel, are you ok?

i do care about you.

either friend or foe

in the dead calm of the waters, how do you read the fortunes of the future?

Drummer VS DJ 12:16 PM

The Ultimate Raw Fish Dinner 7:30 PM

Ive had dead octopus, but never live!

I will try it once in my life, i promise

We will meet again. 1:29 AM

This past week has been pretty intense for me. I worked 60 hours in the hospital, and spent another 10 hours being a patient. I never remember my experiences as a patient because im either knocked out on some damn good drugs, or im in and out. but this time i had to stay and get shot and blood drawn bcuz some one i will leave nameless deceieded to pull their IV out and sling blood everywhere.. Did i mention the blood was HIV and HEP C + ;). Yeah, so let the 6 week blood test commence. This is going to suck. I have no problem being in the hospital, as long as im not the patient.

SOOO ending out the work week for me was friday morning,. and well Friday 9/11/09 was a pretty intense one for me. I came to terms with something in my life that i hope and wish will oneday come back to me in good. I really hope so, actually with everything in me. I got to lay in the park with a sense of calm, i had a very nice resting mate to chill with. and i dreamt. and they were good ones... of otters, kipspringers, and sandal and shoe stealing ferrets...

i will always keep what we have, close to me.

My duck also found a new partner to live with, but she knows they'll be together again.


INNNN a Change of pace: I got My MUSE tickets this weekend, and i COULDNT BE ANY HAPPIER!!! Tampa, FL October 9th, I will be seeing my favorite band. And I cannot WAIT!



It kinds sux that MUSE isnt the headliner, and crappy U2 is, but who cares, im only there for my band then im out to party up in YBOR city, so all in all it will be WELL WORTH IT.


Speaking of MUSE, There website has some of the tightest videos, and news ive seen. and you can find there MUSIC VIDEOS


Sat night we celebrated my friend Jordans graduation from Welding school, and i know he will be awesome at it. He has always been one to take notice in what he does and actually cares about his work, so i know he will be fine.
Sami (jordans gf) threw him a surprise party and she got these really awesome cups that you can scratch your name or whatever into.. here is mine from the night.



So, now i sit here at 1:51 am on monday morning at work and im just hoping that the decision I (we) made doesnt bite in the ass. and i hope that i can overcome all the thoughts and emotions that will ravage my head for the days, months, and possibly years to come.

Good bye, and Good Morning!

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This is the Countdown 1:52 PM

Did you think that the night would possess us
To keep sober like the rain that’s falling down
Did you notice, when the clock stopped running

This is the countdown
They say our time is running out
I tried to stay above the waterline
But never taking off the weights that

Keep us stuck here
In the comfort, and the fear
I’ll never know what we were fight for
But I’m still looking to breakout

I’ve been waiting for something
I’ve been sitting for too long
I’ve been waiting but, oh, tonight
This one last try
Goes on, and on, and on

...someday.. 12:31 PM

It's over...done...


Why did we have to part while we both still care? Why did we have to suffer? Why did we have to cry when somebody said goodbye? Why did beginnings have an end? Why did we have to meet only to lose in the end? There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, and so many promises left unfulfilled.

In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting. It is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was.

At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem at the time, but that's the way it goes. That's the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of becoming one. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us knowing how, without us even knowing why.

It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn in your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always reminds you of them. It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Isn't it funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other. I don't now if it's worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable pace and time. Time heals all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all relationships or even friendships end with a

"...happily ever after."

Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains. Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we had to live up. Sadly, for me, its over...it is gone and life has to go on.

Goodbye doesn't always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled...

...somewhere...somehow...someday

What The Fuck Is This! 12:21 AM

The Gnome with the Nazi Salute: Art or a Crime?

Ok., so. i find this kinda funny, and sick at the same time. its already enough gnomes are scary as shit. now they have black ones with the nazi salute out?

If they make it into the US i dont know what i will do.

Rothbury Music Festival 11:43 PM

Sooooooo, i won two tickets to the Rothbury Music Festival, which is in Rothbury, Michigan through twitter. It was kinda crazy, i usually dont win things.

soo, in order to make it from florida to michigan i had to basically hitchhike using a program called Zimride. Met this kid named chad who is originally from kalamazoo, mi. so basically i kinda lucked out pretty damn well. I traded my extra ticket for a ride and well, it was pretty damn good.

On the way through Tennessee we met a hitchhiker on the side of I-75. His name is Brent Roberts, and I can honestly say, this dude tottally saved my trip for me. One of the nicest people i have ever met, with the most outlandish stories. Everything from Drug runs, to Festival hoping, to waking up in the middle of a yard knocked out. This dude did it all.

As we get to Rothbury we set up our tent and get ready met some nice people get some good food and wellll. Get ready for spun onion fun!

The Lineup this year was a little on the weak side compared to 2008's.. But still STS9, The Dead, Sting Cheese, Girl Talk, Mstrkrft, Pretty Lights, Les Claypool, Eoto, and others were amazing.

The Whole weekend, was amazing and there is too much to tell. sooo the pictures will just have to do. Check the Photos Section.

This Will Deff Make Her Sticky 10:33 PM

Wow, ok so i've seen the banned Pepsi commercials and they werent this bad. How could someone actually think it could go on the air? It is funny as shit tho. Borrowed from my girl at http://www.babysinead.com